Musiclove29 worded it just the way I would – I’ve been a reader and fan of the coffee room for ages, but never did I take the step to actually make an account.
I feel your pain! It has taken me a lot of work to try to feel something, some connection, during davening. I recommend the Pathway to Prayer books by Rabbi Birnbaum. They have translations of Shemonah Esrei and it really helps me focus on what I’m saying, which leads to a real feeling.