Seeker54

Is it possible to know Kabbalah knowledge BEFORE learning the lessons. I am a female, 54 years old, raised Catholic and am having an extraordinary experience. I began watching a program on a Jewish television program on the Kabbalah basics and it was like rereading a book. I already knew about the Endless World, the nature of Light and our purpose in this world. Catholics are not taught this knowledge. It is as if I am trekking down a road I already know. I have no interest in becoming Jewish, no fascination or anything like that. I just love G-d. I have found out by intuition how things work. I use my horoscope not for divination but as a guide to do good and I can sense when a soul is present and when it has left. There are times when I am able to be in what I call the “zone” when I am in connection with G-d and can feel the Light emanating through me when I am doing the most positive loving things for others. I know this sounds bizarre. I have not told anyone of my personal beliefs and at times I get nervous and scared at being so connected so I retreat into this world and close the door. There have been times when I have felt in touch with “time” and have unconsciously blurted out a prophecy. I no longer allow myself to do that. I have read the Old Testament or Torah? I read it as a little child. I find now when I read it that new knowledge/understanding presents itself. I have decided to learn more and signed up for lessons mostly because I want to understand how to properly direct this ability. I am an artist and want to use my talent to create something that contributes and teaches others to want to do good and to serve G-d. Is it possible that in a past life I was educated in Kabbalah? Why would I know these things? It feels so natural to me. Can women study Kabbalah and attain higher levels?