I appreciate all the positive feedback and encouragement. It really makes me feel like I am doing the right thing.
DaMoshe-I am not joking. Just because you don’t happen to know the type of community that I am describing, doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist. Also, my username just represents the fact that if I could meet one amorah, it would be Rav Yochanan based on various agadatas about him;nothing to do with Joseph.
To clear up confusion, although it may have sounded that my main purpose was to rant about how bitter I am about my younger years, that was not actually my intention. I am trying to be forward looking, about how to conduct the rest of my life.
Sem613- I really enjoyed reading your post. My parents do know how I feel and,
to those who suggested it, I will bezras hashem bring up Chofetz Chaim or Yesodei Yeshurun.
Rebdoniel- I am less interested in helping others at this time in my life, than I am in helping myself.
