PrincessEagle

Sweettooth – glad to hear you too have the times,

Feeling high – Other’s have “symptoms” like yours and mine??

You know, running to the bathroom and drinking without stop,

Feeling floaty, not quite there, with a little headache to top?

Feeling low is a whole different ball game!

But i never get there …so perhaps lows should be my aim?!

But when there’s food around the bg’s go rocketing high,

It’s just a battle to walk on, not give up, at least try to try!!

Will i ever get there… do i dare to wonder?

“Perfection is direction,” is a thought to ponder..

It’s just so much easier not to bother, to let it go,

LOSE THE WEIGHT! Eat the food! And pretend not to know..

But a further is in store, low and behold,

Unless i continue without control, i’ll ruin the mould,

It’s not worth it to have complications in sight,

And… i wanna be available to meet with Mr Right!

Talking of which… Rebbitzen! Where are you right now??

We’re thinking of you! Praying for you! .. Tell us how…!?!!?!

That’s all we can do at the end of the day,

Just to make the correct choices – we can only pray.

It has to be G-d to pull us right through,

Of course with us doing what we need to do,

Because choice or not, we still can’t do it alone,

What better place is there other than the true “home”??!?!

Yes Allsgr8…something like that.. How right you’re words are!

I’M STOPPING TO DIET RIGHT NOW!!!! IT’S IMPOSSIBLE!!!! It’s not gonna last anyhow just like it hasn’t in the past couple years! If i’m high i may as well be very high and at least not gain the weighttt.

i’m burnt out before i’ve even begun 🙂

Reb – same here!! i’m praying that it should just go smoothly! Keep us informed!!

Stress and moods in general for sure can effect the bg’s, as well as heat and just about anything else you may think of :-).

In the sun i (used to) tend to go low too. (If [or when?] i ever get control again i’ll be able to see how different factors effect. Did i mention it’s easier just not to bother?!)

Dx3 – great saying actually. It’s good! Perfection is just the direction.. hum, but what if the direction is wrong or there’s no direction? I guess there’s no perfection… Is trying just a little direction / perfection??!

Allsgr8 – “Admitting that you ate is not a sin..in order to survive you need to eat..and in order to eat you need to give urself insulin- simple as that! You sound like your working at it now so im proud of you!!! 🙂 keep it up!” Yes, but when you eat (way) more than you need to keep alive than it is a sin! i mean – sin or no sin, it makes you fat(ter still)! And when you don’t take the insulin, what happens to the food..? So, yes, the simple answer is of course “don’t eat”…

These past few days i am trying to be a little more careful and hey presto! i’ve seen some good bg’s!! Thank G-d. But it’s so not easy and every minute practically is another battle! Thank you for the encouraging words, i’ll try to keep it up! And you too keep those (encouraging!) comments coming 🙂

And Allsgr8 – LOL! Yes, Sweettooth and i go back a couple of years now!

Sweettooth! Don’t you always have me in mind??? You too can say tehillim 20 and 130!! Always hard with “D”.

Cofeefan, that’s awful!!! i’ll say it again, …the insulin makes me MAD!!!!!!!!!!! Allsgr8 – how do you keep so positive?!

It’s horrible for people to think things like that! IT’S TYPE ONE ALL OF YA, YA HEAR?! IT’S NOT FROM OVERWEIGHT!!!!!!

How many none-diabetics do you think heard that?

i also wish i could be thin or at least average! I WANNA BE SKINNY!! When i eat and then have to take insulin to cover it, it’s like i’m “admitting” that i just ate that which makes it hard to cover for it.

But when you have the “sword at your neck” you’ll do anything, no?

Taking insulin…Praying… … … And finding a great, albeit too public, forum!!!!

(Don’t think that’s enough yet! We’ll be back sooner or later!)

Hey – i think i’m not gonna go to sleep or work or anything else!! I miss so much here!

What about you Reb? Were you ever at a shabbaton?

Cofeefan – i wasn’t saying i wanna meet only to Allsgr8, of course i wanna meet ya too!!!

What you wrote is truly special.. I just wish i could take it in!!! Like, ya know, let it be that little bit easier…

You’re right there to say we just have to TRY but trying means your best and doing your best is all the way. i know it shouldn’t be but at this point… it’s just a tiny little bit to the “hey there, anybody else gonna say “been there done that”?? Please – hands up!”

You know, a person can come up with all ways to try help himself and tell himself, “like you got yourself in, get yourself out,” but even at that point we still need G-d and He’s the One Who will have to get me out of a deep n dark rut of crazily high A1C’s and all that comes with it..

Forever1 and Cofeefan and whoever else understands the weight issue – i’m so glad to hear that, as somebody posted on a much earlier post “misery wants companionship”. Yes Forever1 you say it so well!! I HATE HATE HATE giving insulin! I HATE TO GAIN WEIGHT! i wanna just lose .. and what happens when you don’t take insulin?

Allsgr8, i’m so glad you’re finally getting the pump!! When i was reading through the pages and you were writing how you weren’t getting it i wanted to add my post in between and say, “Hey, hey, hey!! Go for Pumping!!” Lol

I’m on the Animas but once my 5 year guarantee is over (if i still have the pump then 🙁 Pray for me!) i think i would go for a different one. I only know of the Minimed and Animas, i like the sound of Minimed mainly because it has the CGM with it. I don’t find the other advantages so great of it..But like others have said whatever one it is it should just go well and you should be happy on it!

About wearing it – i wear it on my skirt tucked inwards, i make sure you can’t see it with my clothes on. I like it because it’s so convenient and comfortable!

I just had a low today! I can’t even remember the last time i was low .. I think you lot have made it easier for me to at least try somewhat.. Keep it coming!!! Lots of it!!!

Reb – LOTSA Hatzlocha for tomorrow’s appointment!

And… Sorry this is so long!! I know that can be annoying.. I guess you just won’t read it if it’s too boring!

It is fun to come back after a while and see the replies!! Reb – how is it going???

Cofeefan and Allsgr8, if you’re enjoying this forum, than imagine one shabbos together in REAL!!! Sweettooth? Guess we’ll save the convincing when there’s another one 🙂

Why it’s soo difficult? (is it also for you?????) well for one there’s the food!! (Sweet name Sweettooth! I couldn’t have thought up that one!!) And weight…

When you’re working on getting those numbers down – it’s work filled with so much frustration when it doesn’t go or when you fail. Ya know the saying “it’s better to try and fail and try and fail again than fail to try,” Well, it’s very true!! But still – failing to try is … oblivion, almost denial. And in that sense it’s easier..

But it’s so much worse off! If only it weren’t so difficult!!!!!!!!! And i know it’s only little and many people would prefer only this…

Allsgr8 – wow, just at 18?! And you’re not on the pump? I’d love to meet you in person!!!!!!!

Yeah Sweettooth, you continuously amaze me at your strength!! Pass some over here… What about you others? How on earth do you do it???? i’ve lost it completely! Dx3 – they won’t give to me the CGM because the control is too bad…get it? Like, first take insulin and everything properly and then maybe a CGM would help improve to even tighter control.

i’m beginning to wonder if i’ll ever see a good A1C again!!!!!!

Yes, it’s sure amazing how many posts i’ve missed since i was here last! I’m glad i found this forum 🙂 Thank you for your replies!

Allsgr8 – you can say the “you can do it” like a hundred more times… Cofeefan, taking it one step – perhaps it could work but i don’t know.. I like to aim for all the way but i know it’s hardly likely to last. But this time it really must!!!! If my A1C hasn’t shown any improvement since the last time she’s gonna take away my pump and i fought tooth and nail for it! Then of course, i have to get that control just to live a happy life and i want the (right!) guy to consider me when the time comes..

But in a sense it’s so much easier to just “ignore” it, it’s almost a kind of denial..

Cofeefan, i don’t have the CGM (they’d never consider giving it to me, like you said dx3 with you, though if i ever get my A1c to the 7s i think they’ll be delighted.)

Reb – how’s it going? Were you ever at the FWD shabbotons?

Welcome sweettooth!!! May you indeed get lots of chizuk and friendship out of here, we’re sure to get lots of chizuk from you too..

That’s really amazing.. so do you write often? Like just in general diary style / poetry / essay?? (if it’s personal than don’t answer! just wondering!) i look forward to seeing what you wrote!! When’s it coming out????

Yeah, they want to take my pump away because they said if my A1C isn’t coming down (which is my own doing 🙁 ) then it goes on the statistics… And the supplies are expensive so why should they pay for it?

Next week they’ll do a re-check of my A1c..

Hum…Somebody mentioned about a yahoo mail link? R’Meisials? Just wondering, you do read the booklets he creates quarterly?

And, yes, i hope i won’t have to wait too long although once i’m on the market – i better have good control for any guy to consider me 🙂

Similar sort of age, had D for nearly 15 years already. What about you? Do you know each other…?

About changing your site, i think “they” do make a fuss on it but what they don’t know won’t harm them!

Yes, i’m type one… what are all of you here? i’ve only just recently discovered this forum! What age group are you all?

yes, rebbitzen, i am saying i can keep in my site (the canula – you keep the needle in all the time?) for 6 days… i end up changing it when it bothers me enough. You too when it bothers enough?