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Well assuming that i wouldn’t have been too serious in telling someone to throw water at me than yes! Say, don’t come to near, the fireworks may begin!

Wow YoelYitzchak sounds amazing! Keep telling more examples! i love them!

So i’ll to be your “google search” … The neshoma of a jew nowadays is said to have been in the world before and didn’t fulfil its purpose and therefore has to come down again to correct that fault before being able to go back and get olam haba. The term gilgel is used to say what the neshoma was before.. Sweettooth was joking that this dog could be a gilgel, meaning that he’s been in the world before and has to come back down as a dog this time to fulfil whatever it is… Don’t believe it, although the concept is real there’s a lot of “must be gilgel – must be gilgel” around too..

Sweettooth, how’s the dieting?! Bride or no bride – s have to diet too!!!! Lets see who can lose more first … whose joining!

Amazing how much you can miss in just a few days!

WELCOME YoelYitzchak! A new member to join the clan 😉 i hope you’ll gain from here and we’ll gain from you like it seems already!

i’ve read about the dog, but haven’t actually heard anybody who has it… Cool!! Sounds like you enjoy it! It always works?!

i like the idea of using the Rav’s room for privacy too… if it can work! It’s difficult to have to eat .. there’s lots and lots of people who do eat, even on yom kipper.. dx3, i like the way you go about it!

Cofee and metooo, interesting about the bites, wonder if it is related… lmk if you find out it is!!

Cofee, you’re swimming story sounds so scary! Glad you’re past now!!

Talking of meters, i always used to use the onetouch – i even have the long and thin different colour ones .. now i use the freesytle lite – it takes a TINY amount of blood in comparison!

Guess what?! bh these past few days i’ve been trying really super hard, and beside seeing that my insulin amounts of def. incorrect… i’ve been seeing some good results too!!!!!!!! Whoa!!!!!

Thanks observanteen! Well for now i’ve posted this, guess it’s not too personal.. there’s always a first time and there’s always a last! Do you read the other threads? i posted a poem i wrote on another thread for those of ya interested.. .

You miss them metooo?!?

Great to see ya back rebbitzen, stick around ? Don’t worry about fasting – you do what you’re told to do!!

Cofee, does sound interesting that you’ve been told to disconnect entirely.. the body takes times to work!

Thanks for the compliments! Keep ’em coming ? jk

observanteen, your letter was so touching, what a great idea for a thread!

Miritchte, that’s a moving letter..

Talking of being careful what you put on paper – i once wrote something very personal and a very close friend got to see it .. she was terrified! But still i find it a great way to express oneself and do it all the time..

i wrote this to a friend.. May G-d have mercy ..

Chaya,

I’m writing on paper to you, words that i could never say to you, or let you know.

Chaya,

Where are you? What’s happening to you? How i wish for your happiness! How i wish for your pain to go, for you not to feel so alone, so unbearabley alone.

I watch from afar, i know you’re struggling. I know that life is a constant battle, a constant fight. And i know you are strong. You are strong and you can win. If only you will continue to fight.

I understand, i understand without really understanding anything at all.

The whirlpool is confusing, it’s so overwhelming, it’s taken it’s wings and spread itself over you.

I know that you feel you are under.

And that you have no address, nobody to turn to..

The only real Address is beyond your grip at the moment. You don’t see, you cannot see how you can possibly turn to G-d at all. Yiddishkeit is only a side issue for you.

And so you continue to struggle, to battle the tides of confusion and pain, to face day to day life in a world that has gone against you, where those you love most have hurt you the most. I wish i could speak to your parents, to beg them to understand you and believe you, to believe in you!

Chaya, i know you have the strength to fight. You have questions, you have doubts – but above all, is the pain. i know you have it hard to express yourself, you always have. You’ve come along way since those days we used to spend together. You understood me in a way that many people don’t and didn’t.

I don’t know if you’re still hoping, Chaya, and i know that you don’t care to know – but i will still hope for you. And i will do the one thing that will help you – i will pray to G-d to have mercy on you, to show you a way out of the pain and lead you to have some connection with him..

With love,

Hey, yeah, how did it go?! Sweettooth, did the “prep” help..

Here i was mostly okay, for some reason i didn’t have to reduce my basal at all! Whilst last time i had to most of the time.. But than after the fast was over i went shooting ALL the way up..

Metooo – what happens is that normally the body is constantly breaking down the sugar for energy and that is why we need a basal. Then when we fast the body is, like – hold it! i can’t break down the sugar, i need to hold on to it! And so as the fast continues and the body is still getting no food it stops breaking down the sugar, and consequently will need less and less basal..

You only take .80?? i’m on so much more insulin…;(

Yeah, Zen so can you understand that people would do in especially!!

Yes, i say kudos again – hats off to you – very impressive! May we all manage to do what you did….

Sweettooth, interesting to hear that about eating meat. Well, you asked and you got an answer!

How did it go for you dx3 and coffee and the rest of you?

i’m completely losing it again.

And now for the this fast.. whose fasting?! Hands up 😉 jk.

May it be a meaningful day either ways and let us mourn that we cannot mourn..

Blabla, how are you doing today?

Observantteen, i have to thank you for the idea you mentioned to blabla – more like a reminder – to write a letter to G-d. i tried it and bH he let me express myself after a while… so thanks for the idea!

Mazel tov!

be good, i waiting for s1 to say that! i’ll second you there… when my aunt got engaged after a few years of waiting and countless times of saying shir hashirim, lighting candles and lots of other segulas – she said, def. the segulas all helped, but in the end there was the right time. And btw she couldn’t have met him any earlier, he wasn’t available yet..

Yes, observanteen, thanks! i love poetry too but i don’t really feel so comfortable to post it so publicly here. i like to write and i do alot, but sometimes it’s hard when there’s lots of turning emotions.. When you say “here” you mean on this thread or in general “here” as cr?

That’s a good point dx3.. though you do hear these stories, statistics wise such stories must happen.

Tralala your article was indeed great!! idk, didn’t find this article in family first say so much really, although you have a point sweettooth on that point of disease and medical condition! Cofee, dare you to read it, (just bc i wanna hear your opinion ;)) reb, alls, forever1, tralala – what do you say! i didn’t like it bc i don’t like everybody reading about it.. esp. the pump – when nobody knows about it, they aren’t gonna suspect anything, but once reading about it they can already suspect!

Talking of the pump – one of the kids i teach pointed to my pump which was on my slip on my skirt, “i know where you keep your cell phone!!” and i watched my co-worker move her to glance in that direction…!

CallmeDave – i like the messages you come up with, you put it down well.

AYC, why, thanks! You’re very good yourself 😉 you always have such nice n positive things to say!

Blabla, you’re words express such depth and emotions. It conveys it so well! i know it’s hard, almost impossible – but it’s NOT IMPOSSIBLE! Hold on tight, it WILL get easier. You’re strong, YOU CAN DO IT! Yes, even in a crazy, cruel and bitter world.

alls – you said maybe you’re not diabetic bc you’ve never had ketones since you were diagnosed.. so if you try out to see if you do indeed not have it – like not take insulin bc you’re not diabetic – then you will have ketones 😉 (and then you’ll lose weight;) maybe it’s worth it)

Losing weight… it’s an impossible thing to do!! Dx3, “The past yom kippurs I did the whole thing but I felt the ketones after.” – talk of ketones. It’s all impossible!!!!

Yes i’ll second that… it can be very frustrating just watching your friend hurt and not sure how to help.. It’s def. frustrating on the other side (yours) too.. i hope it just gets easier!! Quickly!!

And they prob do care although obviously not to the deep extent you feel. Think of it how you care for them and are hurt for their hurt.

Tralala that’s GREAT!!!!! Like cofeefan says – be very proud!! HOW DID YOU DO IT???????

Whoa!!! We’re doing great!!! Page 34 – way to go 😉

rebbitzen – no way should you feel guilty! Lots of people don’t do the fasts, for me i asked my dr and checked with my rav.. fasts affect everybody differently regardless of D ..

And btw i think fwd do say only to fast yom kipper (and tisha b’av?) !

Like i’ve said, i understand.. yup, the depression is big too..

Happiest, blabla wrote,

“btw 90-95% of anorexics are girls (I did some research)

and hugs-its kinda scary that you’re fasting ;)”

Hi right Back… Welcome! ??

Yay Cofee, i’m so glad to hear that!!! i hope it has an immediate and complete recovery!!

About fasting versus not fasting – of course i know what you’re talking about! i’m like, will i make it to the end of the fast.. and there’s been times – including tisha b’av when i couldn’t fast.. (like the way you put it: “youre JOKING right?!?!” lol, right!!) Somebody once pointed out to me that the mitzvah is not to eat, so even if you are eating when you have to – when you’re not eating it’s still “fasting” … well not exactly but at least it sounds good 😉

The point about testing basal’s – well i also used to think that until somebody pointed out to me – i think it was Rabbi Meisals – that when you fast, as the day goes on you’re body needs less insulin because you’re fasting. Maybe because you’re not eating the body keeps the food and doesn’t break down the sugar..

If the numbers are good i see no reason why i shouldn’t fast.. on the contrary, when i eat i go so high, it’s the fasts when i actually have good numbers! i’ve checked it out with a Rav and my dr. and they both agree.

Talking of how low you let it go – one fast some years back before i even was on multiple injections, i let it go down to a 45 because i knew i’d start going up soon.. which did happen! My Dr at the time (changed since) blew a fit over it!! (yup, i understand it;))

Dx3 did it work? Cofee, how’s those ##s these days?

Metoo, do you have my email address? Go back a few pages to page28 to find it.

blabla you words are so hurt felt!! Ayc your response beautiful. Blabla, speaking from experience, i understand how you feel and i only hope that the dark days will be over very quickly.. Hold on!! Be strong!!

And never posted anything whilst? Interesting. You’re friends with gumball?

Yossi if you’re still around, you’ll be missed.