out of town yid

Here I was rather limited in job choices also. Many treif food places here, cannot work in any …NOT one food place here, as Jews are a bit limited in WHAT we can do for some parnosa. AS a FRUM YID, I feel very uncomfortable calling or answering phones on a mass scale. Many call center jobs here, customer service, etc, Many jobs here do not fit into my lifestyle, so I could not do them at all, this is in addition to not being able to work on Saturdays. Most places are closed, except for a little bit of retail, on Sundays. there is also no public transportation on Sundays here.
The worst thing, is that I know I am not alone, as I have seen too many former frum yidden give in…but I will NOT….WE do NOT help our OWN to stay frum. Then….we wonder….why and how did they go off the derech? It is very simple….NO support from their own community. Too many jewish groups just send you to the government for their help. It is far from enough and outside of our world. I have seen it up close, luckily I have rejected it to remain who I am…..

I am facing this problem RIGHT NOW…. I have NOT been able to get any job where I am….as I will NOT work on Shabbos as every job requires here, in a town with very few Jews at all. I am facing HOMELESSNESS within a week, with no place to go to and very little money to go at all. I could have had a job long ago, if I was willing to work on my sabbath, or modify my sabbath somehow. AS a frium Yid I cannot do this at all. So, no work, no money just homelessness. AND….NO support from the frum community either, as NO JEWISH group handles where I am…. Local Chabad is very small and limited and of little help at all… Goyim will help, at the cost of YIDDISHKHEIT. Here I have had no pl,ace to turn to for help as a FRUM YID. I barely have the bus fare out of town, and the bus only allows ONE suitcase, I have to put my entire life into one suitcase….as a FRUM YID, I will need my talleisim, etc which take up much room, leaving little for much else. MUST I have to abandon everything else? How do I save anything? I need to be able to at least be able to put all into storage somewhere, and escape from here.

Where to go to? WHERE is there a FRUM homeless shelter? where can I get KOSHER FOOD? HERE…I will be able to sleep on the floor of a church, and eat only treif food. And I will loose all I own.

I have tried Jewish organizations all over the place, NONE will help. I must BE in their so called service area. But here is NOT serviced, except by goyim…..and NOBODY will help me to relocate.

DO I have to loose everything because I am staying FRUM and desire to have a SHABBOS, and not a sabbath or a saturday? MY OWN FRUM community has ignored me so far, I have only a few short days to utter devastation……all because I want to do the correct thing. WHY as a FRUM YID, Do I have to suffer so?

If I were a goy, or even a frei Yid I would NOT have these problems…I would have a job, NOT need expensive Kosher food, and be able to work any day goyim want me to be able to work….with NO restrictions. Should I have given up any of this to survive normally? Of course goyim think so….and the frum community in its ignorance of helping me is doing the same. Why can I NOT get any support from the frum community to be able to remain FRUM, and NOT loose all and my dignity?

I will be homeless and or loose everything BEFORE NEXT Shabbos! I only want to be able to live as a frum Yid in a frum community, with something viable. Am I asking too much? OR do the goyim win? For my stand here, by NOT being willing to work on SHABBOS, I am a laughing stock in this town. To the goyim I MUST be flexible, and I am NOT willing to give in one inch! I need to be able to be home before Shabbos begins….and cannot work at all ANY saturday EVER, NO exceptions here….No employer here will allow me to leve early on a friday.

Where is the frum community in my support? Why am I fighting this battle alone, and failing and falling into a deep abyss? I still have emmunah and bitachon.

Basically I need a truck to take Me and my belongings elsewhere. away from here to a frum environment.I have no license and have no money to pay for storage or a truck. I need a new start at a new place…I am quite willing to go almost anywhere, preferably EAST of where I am now….. AND, I need THIS before NEXT Shabbos and my pending eviction!

How would I, a FRUM YID even enter a church….or eat TREIF food?

I am truly exhausted trying to get help. I have very little strength (KOACH) left anymore. DO I really have to give IN to the wishes of the goyim? Do I have to enter their clutches?

All of this is to be able to STAY a FRUM YID….I am suffering greatly. And without immediate help, from who knows where, It will only be increasing. To be a frum YID here has been a true challenge.With little Kosher food available and often out of stock for extended periods of time, not to forego the very expensive prices I have had to pay for it…it is very easy to become treif, and not have this problem at all. It is very easy to work on saturdays as everybody else here does, and have a life….and not have to worry about homelessness. MUST I have to give all of this up? To the goyim this means NOTHING. BUT as a frum YID, this is my life! I am poorer than poor….and I will loose even what I have.

Will someone please reserve a space on a park bench for me? I can probably eat leaves and grass. At least they are kosher and I can still be a frum yid. I may freeze and starve to death from this , but I will remain a frum yid.. Must I lower myself to this?

I will have to give up everything to be able to stay a frum yid….. No organization will save me as such, they all provide excuses. And, where is there any oysher to help?

I grew up and attended public schools, in the NOW FRUM 5 towns over 50 years ago. I would walk right by a then fledgling Yeshiva each day twice a day for 3 years. Today, that Yeshiva is bursting at the seams and has expanded greatly, since that time.

Around 1970, I was considered a radical in the public school as I wore a yamulka all day in school. The high school in my day was 97% Jewish. One year, the homeroom containing C students, had 9 kids named COHEN….only one of whom was actually Jewish! Most non Jews were Italian. Even in those days, we had a tragedy in the making as very few of my former classmates are today FRUM. Even then, few cared about Yiddishkheit. At my conservadox temple that I grew up in….in order to be bar mitzvahed, each student of the afternoon Talmud Torah had to promise the rabbi that they would attend a Hebrew High School for a year. Most quit long before then. I was one of only about 6 who actually graduated. AND….very few of my classmates from High school were ever enrolled there at all. I know of some of my fellow public school graduates today, But I am not in touch with any.NONE that I know of ever became Frum. From the Hebrew High School, long since closed, I am also not aware of any who kept their Yiddishkheit. The public school systems of the 5 towns produced many Jewish graduates who have been lost to us today. Today the area is overrun with Yeshivas and Frum Yiddishkheit.

In my public school days, it was considered the IN THING to send your kids to the prestigious (free) pubic school system, few went to yeshivas. Many became professionals, but today lack Yiddishkheit. In those days, parents looking to move to an area looked speciffically for the success of the local Public schools in the area. A house was bought (then affordable), in a good area with good schools….nobody even had any priority to look for a good Yeshiva. And of course….the family joined the existing local temple or shul. who cared about its affiliation? The PUBLIC SCHOOL ruled above everything else…..Yiddishkheit was relegated to some back burner.

Thank Hashem that things have severely changed for the better. I feel that I missed out on so much growing up…. All of my children are yeshiva graduates today. I would NEVER consider sending them to any public school. Even though I am FRUM today, I feel something missing about never myself having experienced Yeshiva education. I feel incomplete, even though I have full semicha. My own sister today is very far from Yiddishkheit, and she also had the same education I did, including that Hebrew high school. Anything she had, she completely lost in college….and she went to colleges with large percentages of Jews. Today she calls me an extremist as I am FRUM. She thinks that she is a fine Jew and goes to temple at best a few times a year. She had her husband cremated. Her kids grew up with no Yiddishkheit….but alongside the menorah was a large bush….. Her husbands mother was Jewish, but hated it, and influenced my sister greatly. His father was a goy. Remember….we grew up in the same house….and my sister and I went in completely different directions. I also have a cousin who is actually a graduate of a well known Queens Yeshiva. Today he like all of his brothers is far from Yiddishkheit and is toeva also. He attended Public school after Yeshiva, need I say more.

NO yidden at all, even from totally nonobservant homes should be in any public school anywhere, it is bad for their neshamas. Even though I, who am quite FRUM, still feel the effects of the public school system more than 50 years later. Most people look at FRANCE as hostile to Jewish education as students have a day in the middle of the week of (Wednesday) and go to school on Saturday. I feel that this is a blessing as most Jewish kids DO NOT go to the public schools because of this.

I have a medical condition called gout. I cannot consume much alcohol at all. For me, it can lead to severe joint pain. I use CONCORD KAL for the seder.(3.5 % alcohol content.) It may have sulfites I just use low sugar grape juice otherwise year round, as I also must watch sugar. To all…..PLEASE be careful on Purim with the drinking. Do not injure yourself or others. Do NOT create any chilul Hashem! Purim is a joyous time, it should NOT have any sadness associated with it. PLEASE be responsible.

Years ago, there was a popular shoe called a hush puppy. I was informed that it was made of pigskin. Many Frum kids wore them. It was not for sports.

I am in a town where sports are all there is….it is the controlling force of the town. The area surrounding the sport stadium is a complete ghost town when there are no events. when there is a game…..one cannot get a hotel room for a radius of over 40 miles in any direction….they have been long sold out. Traffic near the area, a few days ago a complete ghost town….is everywhere. Once empty restaurants…now have long waiting lists to get in….Bars, all over the place are full. Rowdiness rules. In a day or two…all will return to normal…..a ghost town. Each place of business is now charging premiums for anything. They come here from far and wide….to waste both time and Money. Such complete gashmius!

Meanwhile….every day….most people are giving not so free advertising and marketing for this nonsense. The clothing they are wearing promotes the local teams, all under license….bringing in huge amounts of money….just to have the team name on the clothing….and in the team colors of course….over inflates the price of the garment. And its not just garments….one can buy anything at all….in the team colors of course….with the team name on it……I even have seen kitchen appliances with this advertising for sale everywhere, in almost every store in town. More gashmius!

I have a neighbor….just a few houses away….He has this nonsense decorating his house and yard all year long. He is by far not alone. he cannot afford, of course to go to an event with the team he is adverting. They do not give him a red cent….but he has paid for all himself….to promote THEM.

And….the day of an event….and many hours before its start….local media….radio and TV…covers all. EACH game on broadcast radio is on almost EVERY station in the area….there is almost nothing else to listen to…. only the team propaganda.

Few residents of the actual town can afford to go to an event….and there are no tickets available…except from scalpers….event and often season was sold out long in advance. But they still support the team….giving all…..A few hours before event, on event day, local buses stop charging fares, all is free, both before and after the event (if buses are still running when game is over)…..Instead of bus sign saying where bus is going…..it now promotes team…..GO TEAM GO!….(all day on a game day)….

OUTSIDE stadium, long before event, often in the freezing cold, people gather to party all over. they call this tailgating…..aka getting drunk and overeating. Most will n not be attending event…Anywhere else, this would be called LOITERING. This is serious huge business.

The town pays LOW salaries…but these team members earn huge paychecks. If they do live in the area, they easily afford the most upscale homes. the rest of the town is a poverty pocket. The difference in the incomes is quite evident. The team members have a strong union and a guaranteed salary amount minimum. The minimum they can be paid, is far more than almost anybody in town earns. Most players are easily millionaires. Everybody else is struggling to earn a living.

BUT….we WORSHIP them all! A new religion, the religion of sport. Completely false, complete avodah Zorrah.

Rabbi Miller warned us all years ago….stay away! Complete and udder gashmius. No sense or purpose, just a war environment. All means nothing. FRUM YIDDEN should avoid all at any cost.

AND….what is a SUPER BOWL….only a deeper glorification , fortunately this hyper party will end the nonsense for a few months….until the frenzy starts up again…..AND…if YOUR team is not in the SUPER BOWL…..the party is over….unless you wish to change your belief in another team, be it only temporary….until next season….. Only one false diety is allowed at a ti me to be so fully worshiped. AS a season progresses , each weak diety looses its power to a stronger one, until only one reigns supreme. When the new supreme diety is crowned, the party is over……until next time…..when all of the chaos starts up again…. MORE GASHMIUS!

A while ago, I attempted to try to buy a white shirt, and a decent pair of black dress pants here where I am…I went to quite a few stores, nothing to be found. I was told that nobody uses such clothes anymore, especially here. I am too formal in dress. And what they did have I would not be caught in at all. I was told that there was no market for what I wanted to buy. Only for the trash they were selling.

As I have lived out in hick towns for a few years, I have been able to observe quite a number of Chabad shlaich families, in action. I have seen both well adjusted families, with well adjusted children, and complete disasters. It all depends on the parents being able to adjust their children to a non Jewish environment, and also themselves. Lubavitch has a strong support system in place, with online schooling for the children. Although intended for shluchim children, it is open to all. There are two different programs at different hours of operation. One in ENGLISH, geared to the US….and one in Hebrew, geared to Israelis, on Israel time. I have come across Israeli children, who do not know much English, but are located in the US, rising at night, to study on Israeli time! They must sleep during the day!
Nevertheless, it might be easier for CHABAD outside of an established Jewish community as there have been programs started to help them, at their location. Some of these programs can and should be used by Chabad outsiders also, especially in rather remote areas. But for adults, maintaining ruchniyos is more difficult. We can keep our children a bit sheltered from outside gashmiyos, but we as adults must face the otherwise rather corrupt non Jewish gashmiyos world often on a daily basis, while still guarding our own ruchniyos in an otherwise hostile setting. The beginnings of the colder seasons in much of the US, can be a real challenge as colors change all over. When all becomes orange and black, there is turmoil everywhere. The entire scene is very much anti Jewish in nature. Sometimes I have a sigh of relief when red and green start replacing those colors. But no for long…as red and green are not silent, and one can hear such all over…in addition to seeing such everywhere. And HERE…I can still in now February, find lights all over, months after the actual seasonal dates. At least the stuff is long gone from stores. I try my best to avoid all stores in gashmiyosville during that time of complete gashmiyos. It is not easy as one must buy as much as they will need before that time sets in. A plain season where there is little or nothing around, is getting very rare. Now there are red, once again all over, in the form of red and pink hearts…..more gashmiyos THEY have one special day a year…..we have a special night period each week, EISHES CHAYIL. AND….we do not make such a fuss over it!
There is much gashmiyos all over.We are the only ones who merit ruchniyos. Without a Jewish atmosphere to provide ruchniyos, gashmiyos will reign supreme…as that is ALL goyim j]have. Goyim have no clue at all of what they are lacking, but we as FRUM YIDDEN cannot let their influences spoil us in any way.

We, as FRUM YIDDEN, must stick together. We need to keep together as a whole. Look at our concept of a minyan. A community, in order to daven correctly, needs a minyan on shul. Otherwise, one may withdraw to ones home, alone. I was once here in a group of men in a shul…..19 men….but no minyan….as 10 or more did not qualify for the minyan. Of course I was a bit embarrassed to be there. WE just breezed through davenning as there was so much we could not do. Of course the Torah sat in the ARON untouched that morning. It was a relief that the unaccountables, had no idea of what we were actually doing and what the group was missing. It was all very strange. But as they were either complete non JEWS or people who could not be included in a minyan for other reasons, they still had no clues to what was missing, nor did they care. I for one was a bit devastated at the whole episode. Nineteen men…..normally much more than needed for a minyan….and still no minyan! No opportunity to read the Torah….a loss for Ruchniyos….and a victory for gashmiyos. But, we as FRUN YIDDEN have strict rules to guide us, halacha, and it must be upheld. No matter the actual numbers of outsiders, true Jews are ONLY a community if there is a minyan or more present. And that community is the only way we are able to have ruchniyos.
We are all at risk away from our own people. Chabad is only strong TOGETHER. If they are in close contact with others, they are stronger. OTHER Jews MUST also be connected to other JEWS. A Jew alone, is very weak and little challenge for the satan. the satan has a much harder time with a minyan or more. The Torah, and all it stands for, is RUCHNIYOS….BUT, gashmiyos and its kind is the satan. BEWARE!

I am in a non Jewish hick town at this time. here everything is very anti Jewish. If I want a job…I MUST be willing and able to work on Saturday, aka SHABBOS, for me, NO exceptions. I will NOT give in to temptation and therefore remain out of work and facing very probable homelessness here in a town with no Jewish support. Local Chabad shliach has been of no help. All here is complete gashmiyos. If and WHEN evicted to the street, I will loose all ruchniyos. Because I am so stubborn, I have no place to turn to for any help here. I steadfastly will not be available to work on FRIDAY afternoon or on Saturday. Ignorant goyim…have told me to just change my sabbath to a day later. then I can work, avoid pending homelessness, and still have a sabbath. To them, if I do not do so…I am committing suicide. Due to my complete stubbornness in not working on Shabbos i already have a court date very shortly, with no support, to be evicted to the street.Gashmiyos, already quite in control here will virtually eliminate all ruchniyos then. In addition….obtaining any kosher food here is both scarce and very over expensive. i have had to do without constantly, even basic items. There is very severe risk in such a place for ones neshama and ruchniyos. For me it appears that without immediate outside help, that gashmiyos will reign supreme. We are all at high risk in such an environment, JEWS, especially FRUM YIDDEN, need support to be strong in riuchniyos, as gashmiyos is present all over. We cannot forsake our own people, FRUM YIDDEN, who are very isolated in a gashmiyos environment. The Chabad Shliach CANNOT do it alone, he needs strong support from the entire Chabad community. And, of course, HIS ruchniyos must be like iron. It is a true sacrifice to live outside of any established FRUM community. I have personally known much too many formerly FRUM people who, after moving to a non Jewish area, have given into gashmiyos, and developed severe problems with ruchniyos. I am desperately trying NOT to succumb to this at all, ever. It is much too easy to do so. And, all that is for adults…..for children it is even easier to falter. All FRUM YIDDEN MUST have a strong support system and be united, apart they are naturally weak. I know that I have gotten weaker here, I only can daven alone, there is no shul here. There is no group to be part of….only goyim. Weeks can go by and I do not meet even another fellow Yid. A Frum Yid cannot be alone, we all need each other to help with the strength of ruchniyos, as gashmiyos is all around us. A huge challenge for Chabad is that they can be virtually alone, the adults have a hard time…but it us much more difficult for children. So, NOT only is it a problem for CHABAD, it is a huge problem and a huge sacrifice for ANY of us. As there is a CRISIS in NYC with the price of housing, too many FRUM Yidden are trying to flee….where will they go….will some wind up like me, in a totally Jewish desert? It is and has been a big problem in our community which only seems to be escalating. Chabad has paved the way in some areas, but they are often unprepared to take in FRUM outsiders.ANYONE….by moving away from an established FRUM community, is at very severe risk. Chabad must be linked together to survive, once the Rebbe was in touch with each shliach. Today they have the shliach office, and often more than one shliach is sent to a given place. Unless a shliach has been able to establish a school for his kids in his area at their level, they may still have to send their =children elsewhere for school. Once again, a sacrifice, for both parent and child. Chabad has developed a homeschool network that helps both shluchim and others. This has greatly improved and strengthened ruchniyos. But… living away from ones own people will still be quite a sacrifice and take quite a toll on ANYONE….no matter how strong they appear to be. I personally have suffered a great deal here and have had to sacrifice much. I was unable, for example to even get Chanukah candles, so I used tealights instead. Not the real thing….but all I had. Of course Chanukah oil is not here. Another sacrifice. YES, I could today ORDER such things on the internet, BUT I could not afford to. HERE, I have all too much experiences in doing without. A true sacrifice. Gashmiyos 1, Ruchniyos 0. WE NEED STRONG FRUM COMMUNITIES! With no one just having to look in….Ruchniyos cannot be winning!As a popular saying from long ago went…..UNITED WE STAND…..DIVIDED WE FALL……. The FrUM community needs to stick together.
Without support….we will have many of the conditions faced with all too many of our people when they were immigrants, newly arrived to these shores. The pressure was too great on most…and they had to survive in an alien land. That meant working on Shabbos for most, as too many Jews demanded of their employees. It was very hard then to have ruchniyos, and gashmiyos ruled. Ultimately we lost too many Yidden to gashmiyos. We cannot let that happen again. WE, as FRUM Yidden MUST strengthen our ruchniyos over the gashmiyos. NOT just ONE of us but ALL< of us, and together, not apart. ONLY Torah true environments will keep us strong and together. EACH new and isolated community MUST have outside continuous support to survive the Ruchniyos over the gashmiyos. AND….any leaders, especially the organizers, kiruv or Chabad, cannot do it alone. It is not only a sacrifice for them…but for the established FRUM community as well. A person needs their family and its support system to remain strong. And that family needs ruchniyos to keep strong as gasmiyos weakens everything. Once again a true sacrifice. Torah is our guide, without a strong Torah true community we are all in trouble. Until such can reasonably be established, WE ARE ALL AT SEVERE RISK. And, gashmiyos is the winner until then. RUCHNIYOS IS TORAH! Help us all….we all need it in this increasingly
.gashmiyos environment we all live in!

With the odds stacked completely against me here, I have so far endured. Without outside help, I am in deeper trouble than I can even imagine here. I know I am weakening. FOR ME….Shabbos is the strengthening glue factor If I were to loose or even change it in some minor way, all would be lost. HERE, in GASHMIYOUSVILLE, the SATAN is well at work. ONLY in RUCHNIYOUSVILLE is he defeated, and cannot enter our lives. WE all must be in RUCHNIYOUSVILLE to survive! Trying to survive ALONE in a goyishe gasnhmiyous Torah lacking community puts us all….including our families in grave danger. The faster such can be FIXED the better! WE are all dependent on it for our true survival. Without it, we are very much like the goyim and will not have the guidance to keep us the way we are and NOT follow their ways. One is usually very influenced by their environment.

I would love to be able to relocate to Lakewood Ir Hakodesh…if only I could… As I stated above already, I totally lack the resources to go anywhere as I am almost completely destitute. Where can I at least get some sort of a loan to enable me to relocate? I would also need to be able to rent some place and have no funds to do so. I also need some sort of parnosa. How does one apply for a position long distance? My resume has my local address here where I currently am, I do not have a local Lakewood address. When I apply from here, to a job in local NYC area, I am ignored. I understand that in order to get a job somewhere, one must have a local address, but in order to get a local address, one needs a job. Is there any local Lakewood organization that could and would help me to relocate? Without outside aid, I am stuck here. Does anyone know where to turn for such help? Or, once again, do I have to take a position here, unsuitable of course, which would require me to have to work on Shabbos. That is at present my only outlet. One I really hope to be able to avoid.

local chabad shul is very weak, Rabbi does get milk from a dairy in vicinity….but charges $7.00 a gallon, not available in smaller. No other cy products available there. He goes there, about 50 or more miles each way or more, once a week. A gallon is too much for me and I also cannot afford it….I use almond milk instead. (parve) A store nearby (300 miles away) has some cholov Yisroel available ($6.59 for J & J 8 oz cream cheese, if even in stock. A package of muenster cheese 6 oz is about $7.00) Both I cannot even begin to afford. I do not have a car, so I depend on someone to get these and other thins for me…if I can find anyone going there. I use Toffuti products when available locally instead….also not cheap at $4.29 a package or more. Harmony cheese has cholov yisroel star k available, see web site, carefully, kosher is a bit hidden there.. They will ship to you, but have a minimum order, shipping is expensive, cheese comes in blocks, not sliced. Sometimes they may have one pounders available, but usually 5 pound blocks or more needs to be ordered. Has a few varieties available. One need a good cheese slicer. I would love to move to a much more viable Jewish community but I lack needed resources to do so, does anyone have any ideas about this….how and where to relocate?