scissors, my heart breaks for you. I know pretty well what you are going through. My husband is a wonderful great sweet guy. But when he explodes, he is capable of hurting the children physically. When this happens i feel sick. He also feels bad, but he loses control and does this. Afterwards he tries to be extra nice to them to make it up to them. He doesn’t believe in therapy either. He also doesnt believe in medicine, so I understand what you mean when you say your husb doesnt want you to take zoloft. I can’t imagine he should be against vitamins, though and it surely cant hurt to take vitamin b.