knowmalchus

In my opinion, you have a neshama that is so holy, and sensitive to spirituality, that you are physically repulsed by a lacking of kedushah in your enviornment.

The torah was given to humans and NOT angels, perfection should not be expected because of this.

Because of your gauge for truth and willingness to not except status quo, you have the rare opportunity to have a real dveikus and not a relationship limited by the materialism of this weak generation.

I pray that, whether you go OTD or not, you can contribute the positivity that you see missing in Klal-Yisroel and the world.