Moish, wow wow and wow. The very fact that you’re open to become even better is a tremendous step in the right direction. As long as one shows that they want to go in the right direction, Hashem will help him. ??? ???? ?????? ??. I once heard the following, and it gave me a tremendous amount of chizuk- when Hashem sees a person struggling with his yetzer hara, Hashem is so so proud because what Hashem is seeing is a person fighting with a malach, moish, that struggle itself is so valuable to Hashem. this doesnt have to apply to an earthshattering nisayon- it can be applied to something small as well. Also, ???? ???? ????! Imagine how much sechar your getting up there in shamayim! A person can rock the heavens when overcoming a nisayon- and don’t say modeh ani is something so small, because what may be small for some people may be a big nisayon for others and what may be a small nisayon for these people would be a mountain to others! Each person has their own nisyonos- everybody, no exceptions.
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