Pashuteh Yid- thanks! It definitely is stressful, all the time. It is hard for me to manage but I’ve had a good couple of months so I’m hoping that I’m on the mend. Even if I’m not on the mend, atleast I got to enjoy a even just a couple months of my life.

My family is pretty supportive but I don’t feel like I can discuss it with any of them openly. I do feel like some family members look down upon me because of it (the fact that I need meds to help me feel better)but I try to ignore it. It’s hard though. If my family looks down upon it, how can I expect others not to?

I think a very important thing to remember is that not all mentally ill people are mentally unstable, b”H I am not unstable. Have been stable for months already. Months might seem like a short time to some but to most people with a mental illness it feels like an eternity.

Thanks Nymom- so nice that you care. Today is a better day, b”H. Hoping it’s this means that I’m on the road to recovery but I am not getting my hopes up to much. Don’t want to be disappointed…

I know it’s going to be hard but I guess I’m at the point where I’m willing to do almost anything. It might not be good to be at that point because it means that I’m pretty low down right now but I know I’ll be ok!!

Thanks e/o for you chizuk!!!

Thanks icot. I’m trying not to give up, it’s a hard struggle.

All I’ll say is that if depression was my only struggle right now then I’d probably be ok but it’s not which makes it that much harder. I do go on with my life like normal, the people around me have no idea that I’m going thru all this but I know and that’s what hurts so much. I am taking the advice of everyone here- trust me!

And I’m the type of person that feels bad that anyone else has to go through this also. Just because I have to go thru it, I feel bad that anyone has to suffer with it as well. It’s funny because it almost makes it harder for me that there are other people who are suffering too because why should someone else have to suffer with this also? I know, it’s a dumb thing to think because it’s almost like I’m taking the worlds issues onto my shoulders but it’s what I feel…

Thanks all for replying. Makes it easier for me to know that people really DO care.

Thanks NY mom. I am not so happy about having to adjust or change my medications. It’s hard to start a new medication and then have to get used to it all over again. I guess I’m not loving the idea of medication at all but that I don’t have a choice in taking.

I just wish I was as strong as everyone else seems to be:( I know I’ll work at it and get there eventually but now it’s so hard for me! Thanks for all your moral support everyone! It’s good to know that people care (even though you don’t know who I am)

It’s ok Pookie, I was not insulted. I realized that someone probably would inquire about my screenname because it was a little hypocritical.

Thank you IMhere and NYMOM- I have checked it out and have found it to be very helpful!

I am going to have to call Relief, I do actually need some financial assistance in paying for my therapy but didn’t know where to turn to request it.

Thank you for all your help!!!

Pookie, your right it is a funny username but there is still a reason for it and that is because I am striving to be the happiest I can be. Even though right now I do not feel terrific I know that in due time I will start feeling much better, iy”H.

Thank you estherh- I appreciate you standing up for me.