It seems as if you “newbee” want something that belongs to someone else. I posted what I feel in the Entire GanEden of HaShem. A lot have posted about feeling close to HaShem, being centered and balanced with HaShem. Perhaps what you seek is a 5002 explanation, if so, read Kabbalah, it has more answers for your question than Just 5002. HaShem is felt by each in a way defined by each as well as we can express but the true example of trust is How we approach life with HaShem in our heart. Shalom, GanEden