eftachbchinor

Shopping613- Thanks for your kind words:). About staying for a while… We just had a Yom Kippur, and the best way of starting a fresh and clean year (in my yetzer tov’s opinion) is not for me to be in a coffee room where any random stranger could post his/her opinions which can seem like da’as Torah when it’s often not, and to be online more often than absolutely necessary, as per the psak of our gedolim (I don’t want anyone countering that, please!). But for the moment, as I think about what will work for me in terms of staying pure this year, I decided that if I need to give in to a taavah online, let it be by following these threads and not by opening unholy sites. I realize that since I am long out of the school system, my intellectual and spiritual vacuum needs to be filled or my physical inclinations will dominate- which leads very quickly to an unraveling of a person’s whole value system and to emptiness. Take advantage of high school, seminary, and learning. I miss it sooo much! There’s no other time in your life of constant growth in an incubated enviroment like that.

Ivory- you could say that again! Oh how I wish I was 99% pure too!!!

Yay! That’s nice of you, Mods. Just take out that lingering ‘, unless it’s the pintele yid. I still wanted other ideas though also. Do you like my subtitle, -29? Does it shtim? Where are you, Randomex? If you’re cheshbon hanefeshing in preparation of Yom Kippur, I’m very inspired.

ummm……

Randomex, what do you say?

How about ‘harping on harmonic and beautiful undertones’?

cozimjewish, thanks for being here for me. :)I happen to be a she and don’t wanna pretend I’m not (though it’s probably quite obvious in the way I write and how I express myself). Being quite new here myself, I’d like to thank Randomex for handling with care and making sure that people don’t talk “over my head” either. Cozijewish, I think we make a nice Freshie support team. I have no clue as to how to go about getting a subtitle, but I’d want one too, and I guess if there’s a will, then there’s a way even if I don’t know which. So, Mods, will you grant me my request? And do I pick it, or do Your Honors?

Any ideas? -29

I never chapped why “b’rosh hashana” from M.B.D. is nice and beaty. Ditto to The Chevra’s “yhei, yhei…”. Totally inappropriate, unless I missed something. Talking about Destiny 4- love it! Brings back fond memories. Leather jackets and Dovi and Rabbi Green and all.

Sometimes it’s worth it. Like if you’re deathly allergic to p.b. Even if you’ll end up getting it again in the future (the computer, or library card…)

Randomex- yeh, thanks for helping me rename myself.:) And thanks for the info too.

I want to empathize with all those who feel left out of the dancing. When I was a kid and life was so much more colorful and richer, it was an absolute torture for me to be stuck behind bars (literally, in some shuls), straining my eager eyes and neck and standing on tippy-toes or calculating which position to crouch in or which eye to close so I could just about see through the tiny hole- just to catch a glimpse of the beauty beyond. It was always a “pass the screaming baby” situation, a gantze matzav with one mother urging Shloimy to “take Duvi to Tatty”, and another mouthing comically to Moshe to ask the candy man for another pekele cuz Gitty didn’t get one. All this was in my ear, on my toes, in my face, with the pushing and shoving and sticky fingers on my new yom tov outfit. I’d stand for hours watching, and wish wish wish wish that I could join. I loved it!!! Simchas Torah was the time when I was convinced with all the power of my pure and (then still) innocent little bursting heart, that nothing in the world is more beautiful and true than Torah and that way of life. I’d wish SOOO badly then, to be a boy (and also when my brothers would sing zemiros and it’s really nerdy when girls do- they sing too girlyish…ao I comforted myself that one day iy”H I’ll have a husband and sons and they’ll be an extension of me…)

(Wow- can’t believe I wrote all that!)

Shopping6-1-3

You’re really inspiring me

When the monster lets you be

Tell him to set me, too, free

And when you pray

These holy next five day(s)

For me, too, give a little sway

To send my sins away

And blessings our way :):):)

Sorry- thanks LF and Randomex for your constructive criticism. How can I change my name, then, to eftach bchinor? Because that’s what I really meant. Anyways, Randomex, you’re right. It’s never too late to start over, especially this time of year, and maybe a name change will change my mazal (not sure if that’s good or bad…) And I’m just a little creeped out knowing that you’re keeping track of my humble eight postings…

I have to say that I find myself getting teary from reading these posts, Froggie. The fact is that this is a totally anonymous forum, but still, a Yid is a Yid all the way- even bchadrei chadorim and when no one would know otherwise, and the yiras shomayim and emeskeit comes through even here… I’m really proud to be part of such a nation! At the risk of sounding schmaltzy- mi k’amcho yisrael:)