TOAM- im not sure who you told the first time, but try a Rabbi or Teacher. Someone older. An aunt is always someone good to confide in as they are in the family and aware of the situation. PLEASE PLEASE go talk to someone! And when you do spill everything, there will be NO MODS to cut you off lol. Just talk to someone you know is trustworthy. You can do it, we all have faith in you. I wish you ciould just wake up to happy days, but you need to do your Hishtadlus. At least try it ok? If it doesnt work at least you can say you tried and then we can come up with another plan, but I really think this will be helpful.
REMBER- HASHEM PUTS SPECIFIC PEOPLE WITH SPECIFIC CHALLENGES BECAUSE HE KNOWS!!!! THAT THEY CAN OVERCOME THEM AND COME OUT STRONGER! You must be very special and I could only wish I knew you in person because then I’d be a very lucky girl.