Beis yakov
Does the Chazon Ish need your approval? What about the chofetz Chaim? I’m not even sure what this approval is that you talk about. Does Rav Steinman need your approval? A person becomes a recognized gadol and the people accept him. TThat’s always how it went. Chazal were the greatest people of their time. They knew the most Torah and we’re great in middos at the same time. I’m really not sure what your issue is. Rav Moshe Feinstein doesn’tt need my approval he knows more than I will ever know and he was accepted as the Gadol Hador. If you think he needs your approval then maybe you need a shrink not a Gemara!
To me it sounds like your attitude is “I’m quite brilliant so if this stuff makes sense to me then it’s right and true if not, then it’s not for me.” You are coming from the wrong place. Before you start learning any Torah you must recognize this is Toras Hashem and it is totally Emes. Anything that doesn’t make sense to you is a flaw in you based on how you think or due to your prejudices. Torah is not a subject that you tackle with your brains and decide what’s right and what’s wrong. Its all Toras Emes. You have to park your pride. Its not about you its about what Hashem is trying to teach you and you will never understand it if you are always trying to make it fit your brain and preconceived notions attitudes and what you decide is rational and logical. When you come to learn Torah you should say I know nothing. Hashem teach me. Rebbe teach me. Otherwise it’s like you are trying to fit a square block into a round hole.