Danish123, I don’t know u personally, so I cant tell u what u are able to do. Only u know yourself well enough to make those decisions. However, I do think that you sound like a pretty strong girl, and hopefully u will make the right decisions for yourself. If you are realizing that this is hard for you, an have already tried to stop, this is probably a test that God is giving u – and He doesn’t give anyone tests that they cannot handle and pass. You can do it! I’m rooting for u!
Also, about your inspiration dyeing down, there is a 5min video on torahanytime dot com by Charlie Harary called “The Secret of Inspiration.” Hes a great speaker I really recommend that you watch it.