Reply To: I am very sick. Please daven for me.

Dear fiends, thank you for the tefilos and good wishes. I ca sit up for just a few hours a day. I have basically become a recluse and haven’t seen or spoken to any of my friends since this happened. I am very weak, always tired and mostly, I am sad because Elul is coming and going and I don’t have the Koach or mental state to focus on Teshuvah. I feel as if the Sitra Achra has placed this mechitza between me and Hashem. I can’t even put on Tefillin because I have a PIC line on my left arm and haven’t been able to shower for weeks. I am sad and just want to sleep all the time, though I cannot. My narcotics make it worse. They take away my pain but make me foggy and sadder. I have had a terrible year with more tzaros than I care to recall. Now my Elul is being wasted. I am not looking forward to Yom HaDin.