I was raised in a neglectful home
This played a part in your becoming a mechallel shabbos, even if you won’t admit as much.
I have an education (Ph.d)
This, too, played a big role in your disobeying Jewish law.
live quite well
Didn’t you write a long time ago (while still married) that you couldn’t afford basic necessities?
Second of all, I did make the choice to become not frum. It was a choice, pure and simple, and one that I made with complete and total clarity after weighing all my options
Did you weigh the fact that you will burn for it?
I would like I state with clarity however, that to compare someone becoming not frum and someone committing suicide are two completely different things. The American Psychological Society (of which I am a member) does not condone suicide because they feel that suicide, while debated amongst psychological professionals as ethical or otherwise, should be one’s choice only if it is a full informed decision. Since one is unable to make that determination because one is never aware of what actually occurs after death, one is physically or emotionally able to make a fully comprehensive informed decision about the finality of the decision of suicide.
And one is able to determine what hell is like in the afterlife?