ucgnet12- you are making the whole male population look like animals, looks are not everything. A girl can be gorgeous and satisfy the need of being attracting,but her middos may not be on the same playing field and after a few years or even months of marriage all your going want is someone who has the middos that really count.
I also agree with TikkunHatzot, i think writing a journal would be very beneficial. Especially because at the end of the day when HaShem brings you to your bashert, you will realize how much you have grown in your avodas HaShem.
ilovetheholyland remember your middos are what realy count, don’t let anyone tell you otherwise!