Well, here is a comment from a guy…since I am a guy.
First, (I’m not looking to get married at the moment, but) when I was in the military, I was engaged (but it got broken off due to issues of, well, being in the military) to a girl that was 5’8″ 180lbs. I’m 5’11 & was 165lbs at the time. So, don’t assume that EVERY guy is looking for a skinny gal.
Different guys are attracted to different girls; average guys look for average girls & since you mentioned you have good middos, then you probably weren’t looking for an average guy in the first place. So who cares what average girls look like since they only attract average guys to begin with.
Second, this post has helped me to have a little more faith in finding someone. My situation is like this: I’ve been told that I’m good-looking, strong & have a great character and women usually tend to fall in love me right off the bat…until they find out that I do NOT have MILLIONS of dollars and/or that I have no golden lineage that is full of rabbis that date straight back to the time of Rashi….it seems that many of the woman that I’ve met(apparently not the ones on this board, though), don’t put the same amount of appreciation on a person that agonizes to serve their Creator versus someone that agonizes at work to make an extra $50,000 a year.
Third, have you thought of keeping a journal? What I mean is that let’s say this time next year you are married. You’ll probably be going about your life without thinking back to how you agonized over this situation in the CR.
BUT if you kept a journal, then maybe you could look back to it & maybe write a small book for the women that will be going through these tough times. You could describe the emotions & thoughts that you had before & after. And this could be a great way to help those women in the future to have more faith. Just a thought.