“I’m assuming (but I could be wrong) that I’m looked down upon.”
Happiest: I have a friend who’s sister is mentally retarted lo aleinu. There was one girl who always made fun of her. My friend told her, “I know you have a sibling who’s like my sister.” That girl was like, “Whaaa?! How do you know?? I never told a soul!” So my friend explained to her that she was too quick to make fun of her. “I just KNEW you had the same thing. Otherwise you wouldn’t be doing what you did.” I really think that mental illness is unfortunately very common among the heimish ppl. I’m afraid ppl make fun of others to protect their weak points.
In any case, I certainly do think you are one of the “higher functioning”, but I’d rather call you somebody who’s working real hard on her middos. Which is truly unbelievable! I’m working so hard on mine, and it really gives me chizuk to see how much you can shteig by “looking” at you. Keep it up!!