Bump! I have the same problem… I didn’t think I’d find a thread on it. But I did!!
I understand the op however I think some of the posters here don’t…
My thing goes like this, I’m not sure if sth is going to happen and I want to find out if it will. So I make a simian, similar or the same as the op… For example, i say to myself if I get this password wrong then this and this business deal won’t go through, or if I get it right it will. I do this all the time, and it kinda works practically all the time!!! Is there sth behind this??? Im not deluding myself, there must be sth behind it!
I’m not sure what though… Is there a certain koach hatuma that allows this to occur???
It kind of freaks me out… Let’s say if I really want sth to happen and the simian keeps ‘showing’ that it won’t I keep doing it… But the outcome is always the same…
Noone try it though, it becomes a habit, once you start its hard to stop… I’m wondering is there maybe sth wrong with me for doing this like say a condition or sth??? It’s weird!
I though about asking a rav about it, but then I decided that here’s the best place… I’m not going to waste my Rav’s time with this soy of thing… Also it’s kind of embarrassing…