Reply To: The Unspoken Promise

“and im not judging…emuna and bitachon are lifelong challenges, but the way you’re approaching the problem is a bit off. “

It’s not my way of thinking, but it seems to me that others have that notion. The Torah does mention reward and punishment. Like apushatayid said, one of the Tanayim, Elish ben Abuya – later called Acher, went OTD when he saw that the rewards were not there (at least not as he thought they should be). I have had friends that this has happened to.

cleverjewishpun,

I did not mean to imply that you had such a simple faith. I was implying that there is a cost/benefit analysis that if one does the work then one gets the reward. As you said “being frum no longer seemed worth it.” It seems to me that in your case, it seemed worth it until a point.

bpt

AFAIK = as far as I know (which in my case might not be that much)