There is also way too much loshon horah spoken and too much motzi shem rah. I took the opportunity to send SMR a message on his birthday. Yesterday I received a personal response from him. I was so surprised and so encouraged at the same time. As much as I tried to be mechazek him he in turn wrote me words of chizuk and assured me that Hashem is in charge and lightens his burden and “lightens” his dark, dank and “dirty” environment with hope and love. If only we all had that kind of emunah and bitachon.
“it is a big Nizayoin to be in this cold dark place, in constant surroundings that are so full of TUMA and everything that a Yid is NOT and should no even be next TO. and its in this place that HASHEM lights up our Neshama so that we feel and see Getlichkait with a Feeling And clarity we never had Before. this is because HASHEM gives the Koiach for our NESHAMA to shine thru all the darkness, and the Dark is pushed away by light.
We know that its the Teffilois of Klal Yisroel that will be what frees me, BECAUSE ITS HASHEM WHO ANSWERS OUR TEFILLOIS THAT WILL FREE ME AND REUNITE ME WITH MY FAMILY AND ALL YIDDEN WE NEED TO REMEMBER THAT ITS HASHEM WHO WILL MAKE IT HAPPEN AND ITS HASHEM THAT WANTS US TO MAKE A SIBOH OR A KELI FOR HIS BROCHO TO REVEAL IN,
Let us not fall into a paralyzed and complacent acceptance of the situation. Let us think about Hashem’s message to us and what WE can do for SMR and for others, our own neighbors who have fallen on hard times and are in difficult situations. We are too sure of ourselves, and too judgmental of our fellow Jews. We need to follow the Torah, show rachmanus that Hashem shows us, and Daven to Hashem not only for ourselves but to help others.
SMR, could have complained, could have asked for something, could have described his misery, but he doesn’t. He doesn’t want to share that with anyone else. Even if it lightens his burden to share his tzar that is not who he is or what he is about. He trusts in Hashem and asks others to do the same. His sister came to visit and he asked her “why do you look so bad?” she answered “Nu, why do I look so bad, because you are where you are.” He said “That is because YOU think YOU are in charge. Hashem is in charge and when you fully believe that you will be happy and know that everything will turn out all right.”
Friends, Hashem is in charge. He knows all, sees all, and keeps excellent records. WE have all heard the expression “the Wrath of G-d”. We see signs all around us and we ignore them. We think they are messages for the goyim, for the pritzus they display and for their way of life so against the ways of the Torah, but we don’t even think for a minute that these messages are for us. So Hashem sends us messages closer to home. And for a few weeks we are all about doing the right thing and then we become complacent again and go back to our normal lives. So Hashem not only has to wake us up but shake us up. My dear friends, HASHEM runs the world. His word is the first and last word. HE is the judge and jury. The nishomos he takes home will be fine in his care, it is us who suffer the loss. It is us who will no longer benefit from them. WE are the losers and that is what Hashem is trying to tell us. IF we don’t behave as he expects us to, if we don’t do as he instructed us to, if he keeps having to write painful accounts of what his precious children are doing he will keep having us to teach us and send us messages.