Thank you Shein, littleapple, and yungerman1 for your warm and supportive comments. They are very much appreciated. Thank you very much.
yungerman1, I hope she is not suffering more, or at all… Also, we had a humorous thing to “argue” over who loves who more. And after “this” happened, messages from a supportive third party would send messages between us where we would still respond with who misses who “more”. When we crossed paths over Chol Hamoed, and talked, reaffirming our feelings, her eyes were redder than mine. If I said I think the world of her, that would not come close. Oy, I am in as big a pickle as I have ever been in, but will take the suggestions made here, which are very helpful and very appreciated. Not sure if I said too much here, but I have been keeping it to myself and when people ask me what is wrong, I cant share this with them. I have will to get past the ill and dreadful feelings and focus on your suggestions. Thank you..