momma, you are really truly stuck between a rock and a hard place and it is a very difficult decision that you made to stay in an abusive relationship. It sounds that you are slowly standing up for yourself and empowering yourself (I hope). You don’t sound like a victim you certainly do sound like a survivor. I ask all my clients to read “Choice Theory” by Dr. William Glaser. I don’t know if you have heard of it or not, but you might gain some chizuk and some insight from it. If I can offer support in any way please let me know.
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