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I had a friend in high school that tried to OD on pain killers to permanently reduce the pain. Fortunately, those were not that kind of pain killers. She went to the hospital and recovered. 25 years later, she is the mother of 6 children and living a normal life.
What I’m trying to say is that there is light at the end of the tunnel. Her life sucked then (physical problems, social problems, overbearing parents, etc), but it changed. Yours will too.