Observanteen – i can’t tell you what happened but it is NORMAL! And yes, it’s perfectly normal to be frustrated over it too…
Perhaps it may help to be glad that you feel frustrated because it would be way worse if you just didn’t care. This type of thought is obviously only if it makes you feel better and not worse!!
i really hope that G-d will ???? ???? – open our mouth – to pray to him and make us want it . .