i know this may seem hard to believe, but i was always a little shy/reserved on a first date because i didnt wanna scare them with my full personality!!! and some dates would say no bec of it perhaps but i never got a no when i said was interested in the guy.
If your still so panicky and anxious perhaps ur not ready to date yet and u should take a little break and get to know urself, who u are and who u want to be and what ur looking for in a spouse.
best of luck
ps. im only 22 but my fiance is 28 and we both agree it was definitely worth the wait…:)))