Yente,
You sound so frustrated, & rightfully so. You write that you’re on the street with a bunch of chevra that you are aware are not your friends. It’s so good that you are aware of where you’re holding in life and you know that these guys are no good for you.
Please, please, try not to hang with them, you don’t want to be brought (down) to their level. Try to stay where YOU are at, and things will be better for you. When people see that you have an opportunity to decline, and you pass it up to stay at a higher level, they will take notice & RESPECT, yes I said RESPECT you, & then life will start becoming a bit brighter for you & you will slowly climb from your low point.