Hi,
Welcome to the the club! Both, the CR and your problem.
Let me try to start.
Sometimes our avodah, our job at hand, is to do without a feedback, without feeling a ‘geshmack’. We have to do because we’re avdei HaShem and we do as we’re commanded. At other times, HaShem puts us into a mood where we can feel a ‘geshmack’ and zest in doing His ratzon. I think Seforim say – one time with pain (hardship) is worth 100 times without. So it may be worth it. Think about it. That itself should put you into a better frame of mind. You’re gathering diamonds by the handful!