Before I left Yeshiva in Israel one piece of insight that I was told really stuck with me. If I was not prepared to leave, Hashem would not let me. That does not mean that I cannot fail, but it means I have the tools to rise above.
If Hashem put you to the test of the internet etc, even if you failed, know you possess the wherewithal to succeed and fulfill your tafkid. Everything in goes in cycles, you had a rough patch, now take the experience, grow from it, feel a renewed sense of conviction not to fail and to savor the glimpses of purity you feel from your yiddishkeit and IYH youll be a better, stronger yid for it.