Happiest:
Here is what I think. You have mentioned a bit about yourself on this forum.
I don’t know what sort of people you have been seeing, but I will tell you this. I know you may have been told that all your issues are hormonal and chemical, but you should be aware that there is no science to back that up.
Rather, research of the past several decades suggests that all mental issues are based on traumas in our past. I am no expert, but I think you would do yourself a good service if you would see a therapist who focuses on uncovering the reasons for the way you feel.
I am quite familiar with the rabbis being referred to here, (as I noted above), and the psychologists they refer to are all of this opinion.