Reply To: Do you ever get the feeling…

lol thanks for the compliment 😀 i cant believe someone actually read this after like a month…

you misunderstood my post though…it wasnt supposed to be the ramblings of a disturbed mind…or maybe it was and i just didnt realize it 😀

it was actually supposed to be a dramatization of a…for lack of a better term…”spontaneous cheshbon hanefesh” which can be scary. I mean think about it, reviewing your life, every action, everything you have ever done…who is perfect? and we’ve all had those moments we would give our right arms to take back. you know…that time you accidentally said something wildly insensitive…the time you did something stupid that hadterrible repercussions…it can be scary. especially when you consider how little we actually think about what we do.

pay attention at some point in your day…maybe when you have a conversation with someone at work…pa attention to what youre saying. pay attention to your responses. you respond quickly, but how well thought out are your answers? do they roll off your tongue like a predetermined response that you have become accustomed to from years of conversation? or do you actually consider it.

most people go through their day without paying any real attention to what they do. not that most people are mindless animatrons, rather that true thought isnt required. in other words you dont need your neshama (hear me out here before flipping out) to go through our day. your guf, on its own, is quite capable of taking care of that. but compare it to when youre getting very into a sugya…and the meforshim are piling up on your shtender…and youre getting close to a teretz…pay attention to how youre thinking and feeling. you WILL feel a difference. thats basically what im addressing. `