I know this is going to sound hard (maybe corny), let me try anyway. Forget about it, your not going to understand.
OK, you really want to hear? Listen carefully. (put ear to computer)
Try to overcome your feelings, and TRULY feel happy for her. You’ll be making a better you out of yourself in the process. Truly caring for someone else is VERY therapeutic. Now I feel better that you feel better that she feels better.