Smile E:
I’m a little late with this, but I just wanted to add my two cents. I have no idea what your life is about, but Hashem has given me my own pekeles in life. When a person is faced with a nisayon, they decide to go the route of “Hashem loves me”, or the opposite way. IMO, it is not always the persons decision, but may be based on outside factors (including which types of people are around at which times in the persons life). I will tell you from experience, when a person realizes Hashem loves them, (and I’ve touched maybe just the tip of the iceberg) it makes things a lot easier. And it makes life a lot better, and enjoyable. I wish I could put into words just how much Hashem loves you, just for being you.
I’ll give you the same bracha I gave eclipse. May you always be zoche to feel Hashems love, and Hashems presence (and His presents!) throughout your life.
Should I assume you’re female? If my assumption is correct, and should you ever need a little pick-me-up, I give the mods complete rishus to give you my email address. (Or just say the word here!)