CJP:
You are normal.
Let’s repeat:
You are normal.
Take a look at the Gemorah Nedarim 20B with the questions asked to Rav & Rebbainu HaKadosh. (can’t post here due to the MPAA rating).
BPT is correct. The Yetzer Hara is getting you by saying you are beyond the pale, when that is just simply not true.
Just like he did to Chava with the Eitz Ha’Daas, to get her husband to eat.
Ittisa and I had this discussion, and we still don’t agree on all points, but she had a great line.
Don’t attempt for a grand slam while there is no one one base, and you really want to hit a home run. You are getting the home run, and the grand slam will come in time.