BPT
Dont be so hard on yourself slow and steady you will get there as long as you are trying to.
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Rabbi Chiyya Bar Abba said: Even a father and son, a Rebbi and his talmid who are occupying themselves in Torah in one gate (I think that means that they are next to each other and under the same gate, or it can refer to the fact that the Batei din used to be by the city gates…there are probably various pshatim) they become as enemies one to another (from heated debate) but they dont move from the spot until they love one another as it states (??? ???? ??????? ???????? ????????? ??-?-??-?) ??? ????? ????????? (????? ??????????? ????????) Vahev in Sufah (its a place Bemidbar 21:14) dont read it as ????????? but rather as ??????????. Basically its like a play on words which you find often in the Gemara and it means read it as if it says “there will be love at the end” (they will love each other at the end)
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