Hashemwillhelp, please don’t be depressed about this. Go get the tests and do whatever is necessary to bring the joy of children into your life. And don’t look at others, really. Although they have the children you crave you don’t know how Hashem is testing them in other ways. You don’t know if all those children are healthy, you don’t know if their marriages are 100%, you don’t know if they have parnassah, etc. Hashem tests everyone in different ways and you really need to understand NOT to look at yenem with kinah. Hashem has a plan for you and it is special for YOU. Have emunah and bitachon and understand that when you bring your beautiful babies into the world you will appreciate them so much more than if you popped them out 9 months after your wedding.
We don’t know why Hashem does what he does but WE need to trust in Hashem and have the faith to follow the paths he has laid out for us. There is a reason he sends us the shelichim that he does. And no it is not easy, and yes it hurts and we shed many tears because if it. That’s OK, but we also daven to Hashem because of it and we get closer to him and we connect to him because of it. And it makes us understand other people’s pain as well, and it makes us give tzedaka and it makes us do chesed, and it opens our eyes to see the world in a different light. So for whatever reason he has given you this nisayon accept it and step up to the challenge. YOU will succeed with Hashem’s help. Accept Hashem’s help and be confident that he is by your side to bring you your yeshuah.
I say this because I too did not pop out my first child after 9 months, and many of my family members were parents in waiting for a long time as well. But B”H all our dreams were beautifully answered with a capital B. It took some of us 2 years, some 4, 7 and even 13 years, but in hindsight whatever Hashem’s plan was for us we have beautiful children and eineklech as well.