I didn’t go to this seminary.
This may be true but this is the kind of thing that could lead to psychological disorder if obsessed about. Seriously. Track down the teacher who said this and have a heart to heart, you know, “Now that it’s nogeiah I’ve thought about this a lot and wonder if you could give me hadracha.” I think you need someone to bounce things off of IRL. Hatzlacha and may you be zoche to build your BNB soon, with the right one at the obviously right time.