I am not sure if anyone really cares
sephardic.chabadnick, I care.
I feel for you and I see you’re in pain.
Maybe someone can tell me: Is Hashem trying to tell me something?
Avrohom Avinu was tested with ten nisyonos. Dovid Hamelech went through a life full of hardships. Hashem tests the people He feels have the stregnth to withstand His tests which make them stronger and greater people.
Do I just not belong with my own people?
If you are Jewish, then you belong with the Jewish people, even if they are causing you pain.
I actually wanted to start a thread on that issue, but I felt that I will be misunderstood and considered judgemental so I didn’t. sephardic.chabadnik tell me if you feel my assesment regarding this situation was made in error, or if you feel I am right, please let me know.
I feel that there is an entire mass movement of making BT’s. People who are Jews are being shown the beauty of Yiddishkeit. These people get attracted to the truth and start living that way of life. Once they do that they are left to their own devices, the support and encouragement gets forgotton. Instead of being there for the BT’s who made tremendous sacrifices to live a Torah life and could use all the encouragement and support at least these BT’s(who are btw, on a higher level than tzaddikim) are forgotton and instead the focus is on the new batch of mass produced baal teshuvas.
But more important than support and encouragement they need a freind. Whoever guided baalei teshuvas into their becoming frum, need to be their as they enter the new world and when they are living a Torah lifestyle and be there for them as a friend.
We don’t need to worry about what will happen with the rest of klal Yisroel that is drifting away (okay I’m gettin ready to dodge bullets here from other posters). That is BEYOND our control. What is in our control is those whom we bring closer to Yiddishkeit, we need to be there for them. We need to be their freinds and help them with their needs. They are not only neshomos that you’ve helped becoming Jewish and finsihed, your done. They are people with feelings and with struggles, especially with their new life and identity. They need you long after you’ve introduced them to Yiddishkeit. They need you as a freind for life.
sephard.chabad., tell me if I’m with my assesment of this situation is correct and if you think this is the problem in your situation as well.
sephardic.chabadnik, one thing though I do understand the community you are in. The fact is, although it might be painful to face, your daughter is as of now not a Jew and therefore she can’t be accepted into yeshiva. About children of full fledged goyim being accepted, it is most probably due to the fact that only the fathers are non-Jews. If the mother of the child is a Jew, then the child is too, regardless if the father is not.
Aboslutely do not throw in the towel! You are already here! You are close to Hashem, the God of your father and forfathers, stretching all the way to Avrohom Avinu! Do not give up! Challenges eventually pass. It is hard. It might take a long time, but you will eventually be at peace with the right decisions you make.
Remember Hashem is with you ALL THE TIME. Cry to Him, talk to Him. You are in a postition to be very close to Hashem because you are being moser nefesh for the truth and the ultimate Truth is Hakodesh Baruch Hu.
May Hashem give you the strength and courage to continue and may He grant you peace and serenity every day of your life.
sephardic.chabadnick, you will see, if you make the right choices, you will not regret it.