gitty —
It’s hard not to believe in G-d, belief in G-d is based on common sense. How is it that rain falls and causes flowers, plants and trees to grow, did the plants tell the clouds that they need water? maybe it should rain gasoline, but only water falls, which is the ONLY thing that will make a plant grow. The sun is 93M miles from earth. scientists say that the sun is in the perfect distance from earth in order to let Life exist, if the sun would be a little bit closer it would be too hot, a little bit further, we would freeze. Who put the sun in that perfect position?! It went by itself?! Common sense tells you not. As Albert Einstein said, ‘G-d does not play dice with the universe’. Like the famous analogy; a man walking in the desert and finds a watch, he knows that someone was here before, because the watch can’t make itself. If you just observe our wonderful universe, you will see that everything has a plan and a purpose, and that shows that there is an Intelligent Designer who created this world. You sound like you did research and read some books, maybe read some books from the ‘other’ side. You might find them very enlightening. I would suggest for starters, R’ Avigdor Miller’s wonderful book ‘Rejoice O Youth’ among other books that he wrote on this and related topics. Hatzlacha Rabbah.