Are ppl openly criticising you and speaking badly about you? Like do u know for a fact?
The reason i’m asking is cuz’ ppl usually don’t mean to be mean or critical. I don’t know ur community and so i’m not judging.
But you seem to KNOW that u r different than ur community, so perhaps it’s ur conscience that makes u feel that others are looking down at you?
I truly hope u don’t take this in a bad way, but maybe it’s some food for thought.