Frustrated

I am 23 years old. My first date was when I was 20 years old. I have since gone out with less then 10 guys. I know dating a lot can equally frustrate a person however the position I am in makes me feel hopeless. I complain to my parents that they aren’t putting in effort to make something happen, which is just me voicing my concern, I know they are trying their best. We are not an in-the-know family which may be contributing to the situation. All my mother has to say is that I have to Daven and I don’t care about the situation and “that’s the problem.” My relationship with g-d is none of anyone’s business and i despise it when people meddle into this matter. The fact that I want to pursue a career is looked down upon because I’m only supposed to be working and going to school until I get married which makes me so angry. The idea that I am not walking around depressed and teary eyed is astonishing to my family members and sadly to my co-workers. And obviously I am treated like a spinster. I AM 23!! FOR THE LOVE OF –. I have tried to network myself and am part of a large social circle but this has not yielded results in being set up.

The above text may send mixed messages, so does she want to get married or not? I want to be in a relationship without the pressure of married. If am not going out , I don’t want to be pitied- this make me feel desperate and needy (which is a feeling that is a product of my society)

After scoping other options to find someone on my own and coming up with nothing. I am feeling hopeless

rant. over.