IYK,
It seems that you suffered a lot, assuming the facts are what you said them to be, is terrible.
There is no justification to abuse another human being. However, while religion might have been used as a means for the abuse, it is not the religion or the Torah that caused the abuse. It is the sick individuals that have done so.
They would have done so regardless of their religious beliefs, and others with similar levels of religion do not endure any abuse due to their religious beliefs.
I do hope that you continue to heal, in whichever way works for you.
That said, the Torah is what it is, we do not get to change it. If you do need a different understanding in order to help you heal or survive, that has nothing to do with the rest of the world.
You should have a speedy and complete recovery.