IYK,
I am sorry if what I wrote hurt your feelings. I dont know who you are or what happened to you in the past, whatever that may be I do hop you get help and are able to heal.
That said, I did take issue with what it seemingly was implied by your posts.
About some of Hashems commandments being arbitrary. While what happened to you might have hurt you to the point where eating on yom kippur and eating non kosher seems ok, the Torah says otherwise. So when some point that out and refuse to accept your subjective interpretation of what Hashem wants, and calls you out for publicly making up what Hashem has said, is not judging you as a human being.