Dear Mesivta,
We touched this ever so slightly on the other tread. Yeshivos today do not guide anyone on where the Bochurim should be. Only where the Yeshiva should be. If you are ‘in between’ then you have no Yeshiva to guide you to think about the Yeshiva. So it follows that since you are on your own, you have to think about yourself.
If you just graduated a Yeshiva, and have nobody to confer with regarding yourself, that is serious reason for pause. You where there for years, and they gave you no tools how to deal with your own personal growth?