We don’t understand Hashem. I know it’s hard. I’m around the same age and I’m single too.
(Don’t worry ya’ll you will all know when i get engaged).
I agree that saying no based on pictures is NOT a good idea. People look different in real life; in addition girls can build attraction through emotional connection. No one I know who got married came back from a 1st or 2nd date saying “Omg he’s so hot! He’s so attractive!”. Obviously if someone is deformed, or looks like he may be mentally ill or a serial killer than I’d pass too. But you don’t need to be physically attracted to do a 1st date; or a 2nd one either. You need to not absolutely hate his looks and want to throw up by the thought of meeting him.
I have no idea if you are being realistic as I haven’t seen you around here much. I’ve been off the site for quite a while.
Also maybe you’re not ready. Maybe you’re bashert is 4 years younger than you and is still in high school.
We don’t know!
You are very young. I’m sorry there’s rumours going around. That sounds mean and tough to deal with. I hope you can find it within you to keep going, doing your hishtadlus, and davening.
If you are still nervous perhaps go to a dating coach to talk over your concerns with her.