I’m BT. My Hebrew is primitive. I can daven with it but cannot study original texts. My learning currently consists of learning Hilchos Shabbos and reading Meam Loez for weekly parshah (but often I don’t get all the way through.) My strength (I think) is in chesed, not Torah learning. I am obligated to learn Torah and enjoy what I learn, but I recognize some people at 120 will have built their name through Torah learning and others in other ways – Chesed, eg. The army needs some generals, some Army, some Navy, etc. If the Navy man deserts his post and decides he’d rather be an army man, and even wins the battle, he’ll be in jail for life. Because he deserted his post. Not everyone is supposed to learn all day. Maybe after Moshiach comes. But who is going to have money to give to tzedakah? Who is going to be an example to the outside world? There are a lot of paths to serve H-shem. Not everyone is for Kollel. Who is going to support the Kollel anyway? You need parnassah for that. And isn’t Zebulon honored more than Yissachar?
I’m old enough now though that I don’t really care what other people think of me – I just need to make sure I’m doing right, working hard, and checking in with my Rebbe once in a while to make sure I’m on the right path.
Who cares what other people think. Just make sure you’re good with HKBH.
My two cents.