Understandable. They don’t own you and your growth. They are helping you and maybe you can let them make that easier on you.
You can give them a job so it feels like you’re in charge. Tell them that you would like them to please drive you at this day at this time.
You don’t have to tell them what you talk about in there.
It’s still special and a gift for your personal development.
So glad to hear <3 You’re awesome JA!