Lightbrite, I just looked back at your post and realize that there are some things I MUST comment on, despite the fact that I don’t know if you read my lengthy post yet:
“Also I guess what is most difficult to swallow is that I can basically, theoretically, increase in mitzvot on all fronts. Yet it won’t mean anything or indicate my Yiras Shamayim if I am un-tznius? I thought that each mitzvah has value, big or small we are not the judge of what’s most valuable to Hashem.”
Chas v’shalom that you should think that your each and every Mitzvah does not have tremendous value!!! You are right that every Mitzvah has value and we can’t judge what is most valuable to Hashem.
What we do know is that every little Mitzvah has tremendous value to Hashem – much more than we can ever imagine!
Focus on the positive – on the tremendous joy you bring Hashem with every little Mitzvah that you do. Every Mitzvah that you do has incomparable value to Hashem and you are bringing joy to the Shechina in a way that no one else can since no one else can do YOUR Mitzvos, and Hashem wants LIGHTBRITE’S Mitzvos, and no one else can do them!
Your weaknesses do NOT take away from your Mitzvos! We all have weaknesses, we all do aveiros, but that does not take away from our inherent Holiness and the Simcha we bring Hashem with each and every Mitzvah!